A Word Of Encouragement: 


You Will Not Die Here

This part of your life has literally felt like death. You cannot seem to get your head above water. It’s been hard to get out of bed and even find the energy or strength to complete daily activities. The pressure of life has taken its toll and you can’t seem to dig yourself out of darkness. You are exhausted as you smile publicly and fall apart privately. You feel defeated under the weight of life. You watch as people who hurt you move on while you are left picking up the pieces. You’ve contemplated giving up more times than people would ever guess. No one has asked what’s going on, and the ones who know peripherally say, “you’ll be fine.” To be honest, you’re not okay and you haven’t found the courage to tell a soul. The usual pick-me-ups aren’t helping. You’ve prayed, and God hasn’t responded; you’ve cried yourself to sleep and the tears haven’t felt healing. You’ve showed up to church, shouted, left and before you get home the weight of life showed back up. You’ve tried every sleeping measure possible— from NyQuil to alcohol and still….nothing.

If this is you, allow me to tell you that this current state will not be the end of you. You have purpose, and what’s happening on the inside is going to unlock something far greater than you have previously imagined. When someone codes in the hospital, the most painful part of revival is CPR and the aftermath. During the process of CPR, your chest is put under tons of pressure- so much so that ribs are cracked and bruised. Your body takes a beating like no other and after you’ve been resuscitated, you must spend time on the ventilator before you are released to breathe on your own. Contrary to what folks think, the process of CPR is painful and can sometimes last for hours. But unless you have signed a DNR, they will continue pushing, pounding, shocking your system, and breathing life into you until the doctor calls it quits or until there is a pulse again (life). What appeared to be the death of you was only a strategic move. Because God is the doctor and He’s not stopping until He feels life re-enter your dreams.

Be advised though, after CPR has been successfully performed and signs of life are present, the pain of the process from death to life is felt while you’re on the ventilator. You feel the cracked ribs and the struggle just to breathe through it at times will feel like you’re suffocating from within. This is when doctors say most patients give up because it is too painful. This is also why they encourage people in recovery to have family present who can hold the hope for them, remind them that this part of the process is temporary, and healing is on the other side if they can just stand to breathe through the pain.

Be encouraged in this— the ventilator is the last step of the resuscitation process. After that, it’s RELEASE. You will feel the pain of CPR while in recovery, but you are about to feel the victory of release if you can hold on. And you won’t feel the same after resuscitated because your body doesn’t go back to its previous state. We have to be okay not being the same because we are not called to perfection; we are called to be wounded healers.

But, I promise you this: YOU WILL NOT DIE HERE. 


Today, God help me to find the courage to breathe through the pain and gain the strength in those moments where it is too painful to live. Help me to hold on to this hope: that You are calling the shots and even when it doesn’t feel good, I can trust Your process. God, give me the strength to trust the reason You resuscitated me. Help me to know I still have purpose here. Help me to keep breathing when it hurts, when it doesn’t feel good, when I want to quit. Remind me, God, that even though it isn't easy, it will be worth it. 

Hold your Hope-